THese days I have been suffering a toothache. I feel myself is a special person and I feel sad just because I'm special. I have never been in the situation while I run across something, there have never anything happened in my life and nothing eciting for me, but a lot of things happended all exist in my private inner world and this is the most significant thing for me.
For most of people, when something happens, that means they find jobs, earn a money or something like that. but for me, that means I'm thinking of something and going to talk about something.These days I've thought a lot. I want to talk to a person who can understand me when I'm facing him/her, that is not I dont know how to express myself, that is I dont know who is the person or where the person is who I love to talk to facing in this world.
Sometimes I feel despair---I have something strong in my heart, but I cant speak it out, and this despair cant be solved by myself.So this feeling makes me feel I'm special, different from most of people.
Some people maybe think I'm a self-centered, always think of myself.Everything is always what I myself think of from my angle, how I myself want to do, and how I myself feel, and I myself feel i'm special. What I'm thingking is different from others',so I'm a person who concetrate too much attetion on my inner world.
