hey,
i read what you had to say and i wanted you to know you are not alone. i was diagnosed with bi-polar manic depression when i was 42 but a always new from as a child that there was someting wrong with me. i am now 55
i tried pills, burning my hand, cutting myself and eating disorders amoung other things. it is a challange everyday of my life. i am on medication for manic depression which has helped alot. but i still have certain times of the year that can't escape me.
hope this helps alittle.
sorry don't know how that happened!
take care